At 62, I thought my chance to become a father had passed.
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I had made peace with that years earlier.
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Or at least, I had convinced myself that I had.
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My wife had died 12 years ago, and we’d never had children together.
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For a long time after she was gone, the house felt impossibly large for one person.
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Every room seemed to hold some reminder of the life we’d built.
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Her favorite mug remained in the kitchen cabinet.
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A framed photograph of us sat on the hallway table.
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I even kept the old wooden chair she used to complain about because it hurt her back.
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There were days when I would walk through the house and almost expect to hear her voice from another room.
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Eventually, the grief became quieter.
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It never disappeared.
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